A friend of mine posted on Facebook that in the difficult times, it’s so important to remember what you’re blessed with. We all go through hard times, difficult times. But sometimes it seems like the hard times will never end. So I started to think about all of the things in my life that I have been blessed with. First and foremost are my two beautiful and healthy children. Sadly, there are too many parents that have children that are not blessed with good health. Also I have my health, and a roof over my head and food on the table. I may not have much money, but I get by with the basic necessities that many people do not even have. I have been blessed with the ability to start college at 37 years old, because I have the strength and determination to fight like hell to have a better life. I value my independence, and am proud of myself for being able to survive mostly on my own, and be such a good role model for my kids.
I could not do all of it on my own though, I have been blessed with the most amazing friends, that are always there for me. Thankfully I still have a little time for my friends, my flowers, and for studying despite the three jobs I need to work to pay the bills. I am blessed to have a good therapist, that has helped me to deal with depression, grief, guilt and loss. Helping also to deal with the feelings I have about my daughters cutting.
All in all I have more than a lot of people even dream of. When I feel like I have nothing, or when other people are lucky and they have more than I do, I just remind myself that there is always someone that is worse off than I am. Always someone who has less or is in a worse situation. I am a glass half full kind of person. I always see the good in people. Sometimes it gets me hurt, sometimes I get taken advantage of, but it’s who I am and it’ll never change. It is and always has been my nature to believe other people are good. Sometimes circumstances get me down for a while, but I get right back up. Thanks to all of the blessings in my life.